The other day, my family and I went to a night of worship at our church and as we were standing there, singing, I started to become overwhelmed with emotion. I am not often overcome with emotion during a worship service. I enjoy the presence of God, and love feeling His power. But this time, it was different.
I began asking God what He wanted to speak to me, because I felt I was on the verge of hearing His voice clearly. It was a struggle for a bit. My mind kept getting in the way and I had to fight back thoughts that just weren't what He was trying to speak.
Then as a song (I can't even remember which one) started to play and the singers began to sing again. I settled into a pose of worship and just let myself "float" in His presence. Then I heard these words,
"Be a woman of God. My anointing is resting upon you. Act like it. Don't want for something to happen. BE the something that happens."
Wow. I know that God has a plan for my life. I know He has given me a vision for something to come in the future and I had sort of been just sitting around going, "Well, I've struggled being a Christian for the past 4-5 years. I need to have a deeper relationship with God. Well, I don't know anyone who can even help me get to where I feel God wants me. Well, I am so busy with my three kids. Well, I don't have the time. Well, I don't have the money."
Well, well, well, well.
It was all excuses to just wait.
Sometimes we want to wait for anything and everything to do what God has called us to do, because it seems impossible. That is the case with me! The vision I have seems insurmountable! I am still at a loss of how God is going to do this. But if it is His vision (and I honestly feel deep in my soul that it is!) then He will make a way. I don't have to question or wonder, or wait! I just need to pursue Him and His heart and He will show me the how, when and where.
