Finding Peace

Lately, life has been throwing some curve balls at me that were totally not expected and ones that are totally not wanted. It's one of those times in life that you wonder, "what did I do to deserve this?" 

I just have to keep reminding myself about Job and how God allowed satan to test him, and in the end, he came out stronger. I can only hope that I'll be as strong in God as Job and be able to come out on top of this, a better person and wiser.

Finding peace can be hard when your life is being tossed around, and there is no security in your every day life. Humans value security more than I ever realized. I'm the type of person to dislike change, extremely dislike change. But lately my life has been full of change. In the past 4 years, I have left a church that I spent nearly 17 years at, (thus leaving all I knew and loved; friends, family and, yes, security). Then I went to Bible college, then I left Bible college, got married, moved up to Chicago where my husband was training for a career in the military, had a baby, moved to San Diego, CA, hubby got injured, left the military, moved to another place in CA, then moved back to Texas, and hubby has had 3 different jobs in the past 4 months, just trying to make ends meet.

In other words, my life has had no security, or "settling."  Oh, and I've had another baby on top of all that. *please don't judge us having two children with all this insecurity. It was not intended, but we DO welcome our little ones and love them with all our hearts.

Life can be really stressful, but in the midst of all that, there can be peace..

Where you ask?

In Jesus. And trust me, it's not always easy to find it in Him. He makes it easy, but it's me, personally, that often forgets to run to His comforting arms. I am often looking for comfort and peace from my husband, or my kids, or my parents. But more often than not, that just causes more upheaval and discord in my heart.

I'm trying to learn to turn to Jesus and find comfort in Him. Listening for his still, small voice can be a challenge at times when the winds of life are whipping around us, but when I calm myself long enough to listen for it, His voice comes like a cool, soother to my heart. And it is then, that I find peace.