Today was a disaster! Well, not completely...but my attitude was a disaster.
Have you ever had a day where you wake up and think, "Ok, today should be a good day!" And then as soon as your feet hit the floor, things just start going wrong?
Today was one of those days for me. But not only did things go wrong, but my attitude went wrong too. Honestly, us women would like to blame it on lack of sleep, hormones, our children, our husbands, our jobs, our house, or whatever excuse we can come up with. I'm not saying those things can't contribute to our seemingly, "lack of control" but there are always deeper issues underlying that cause our attitudes to flare up in the wrong direction.
For me, today I just kept thinking, "The whole wide world seems against me today!" But in all reality, it was just the course of life and consequences for things I either forgot, had no control over, or didn't even know about. Sometimes we have to stop and think about why these things are happening, figure out what we can do to prevent them and then start actively changing things so these disasters don't continue to happen. One of the biggest things we have to actively change is our thought life. Our thought life rules our world. What we think, is what we are, or will become. So if you're thinking, "I'm so depressed. I'm so frustrated. I'm stressed out!" etc, then you're actively putting those things into place, or reinforcing what is already going on.
I am the queen of a negative thought life. I'm not proud of it either, and I'm trying very hard to change that. (You know to change a habit, it takes 30 days to break it and 40 days to get it set in stone, the change you are trying to bring about). It's not easy. I'm on day 10...of breaking my habit of negative thinking. And I'm also not proud to say that I've failed more often than gaining victory in the past 10 days, but it's not keeping me from trying my best.
So today when my world began to crumble; first a problem with a check I'd written, then the college saying they couldn't register my hubby's classes due to their computer system being messed up tonight, along with not being able to find his military papers showing his home of record as being Texas, and some other issues too, I found myself just thinking negatively, over and over. Then when I finally got home after getting some things settled and figured out, I stopped to think...to think about my thoughts and actions. I realized that as my thought life got more negative, the more negatively I treated people around me, including my loved ones. So I changed my thought life. I began to think, "Ok, everything is really going to be ok. Things are fine. We can get this all figured out!"
Seriously, not joking around, things began immediately to turn around. We found the paper we needed to prove our home of record as being Texas, the testing center at the college found his scores and were able to print them off so he could register for school, my hubby and I started getting along better (not because of him...he's a gem. It was my attitude that was driving a wedge between us) and my evening turned out to be quite pleasant.
So you see, it's all in our thought life. But we must make the choice to think positively! If we don't, then we just increase the negativity in our lives and it not only affects us, but it affects those around us.
In all of this, most importantly, we MUST keep God as the center of our lives. He doesn't expect us to be perfect. He doesn't expect us to always do things just right. What He wants from us, is when we realize we've gone astray, to come to Him, ask for His forgiveness and help, and keep going on. He is always there for us, no matter where we are in life.
God bless each one! Much love!
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